Story & My Mission
Today people from all over the world come to me when they have finally had enough of their own shit and are ready to heal. When they’re ready to finally create the love & life they so desire and deserve. My clients feel safe to be themselves with me. They feel safe to not be perfect. I share with my clients my raw and vulnerable truth with them, which allows them to relate to me. I share my heart with them. I share my insecurities because there was a time when I was exactly where they are. I don’t teach anything that I haven’t experienced myself. The work that I teach is what led me to my love and life of my dreams that I have today.
I was divorced at the age of 35 after being married for 16 years. I had 3 beautiful children, a beautiful new dream house, my dream SUV in the driveway and my dream career as a 6th grade Language Arts teacher. I seemingly HAD. IT. ALL. On the outside, it was what I dreamt of having since I was a little girl, but I couldn’t wait to run from all of it. I couldn’t wait to run from the anxiety and uneasiness that came along with all of it. But, I was so scared of being alone. I doubted my own self. I doubted if I could make it on my own. I didn’t quite trust myself. Until one day I realized I had already been alone in my marriage for years and was already supporting myself emotionally for years. I decided I’d rather work on myself and get to a place where I would be alone, single, and happy rather than lonely, married, and miserable.
I finally CHOSE ME.
Today, I speak proudly of my divorce. No, it's not because I was abused, cheated on, or lied to. He wasn't an alcoholic or a drug addict. He was a good man, but he just wasn’t MY man. He was and still is an awesome father to our 3 beautiful children. But my journey with him ended long before I was able to let go and the lessons my soul was supposed to learn were achieved. Our time was up. Simply put, my soul was ready for its next agenda.
This is when I was catapulted into the dating world after only being single for a very small amount of time in the 90’s, as I was married at the age of only 19. Fast forward to 2014, where I was now 35 and heartbreaks and broken promises became my new normal. My new dating life was the familiar club banger Show Me Love by Robyn S on constant repeat.
“I’m tired of giving my love and getting nowhere. What I really need is somebody who really cares...Words are so easy to say, oh yea! You got to show me love”
Ya feel me? I know you know the song!
This. Was. My. Life.
Dating all the wrong emotionally unavailable men and getting hung up on them even though I knew I was better than that and deserved way more. I would try to move on and then everything reminded me of them. I allowed myself to stay fixated on them.
I’d play songs that reminded me of when we had a great night! I’d go to the same restaurants that we ate at just so that I could replay the fun from that night in my head.
I craved him but it made zero sense why. I knew on a conscious level he was NOT what I wanted.
Until one day I realized, what I was actually doing is NOT craving him at all. I was actually craving ME.
I was craving the ME that I was when we were together.
She was fun
She was sexy
She felt wanted
She felt stimulated with excitement
She didn’t feel lonely and scared
She felt so damn good enough!
And THAT was why I missed him! He took a piece of me that wasn’t truly mine when I let him go. I so badly wanted to experience all those pieces within myself again and I didn’t know how to get my hands on them to make them part of my new foundation that I was building.
This is when I started working with my spiritual teacher, went back to school for my Master’s in Holistic Health, and got trained in all sorts of incredible programs from famous thought leaders in the industry.
In short, I. DID. THE. WORK.
I finally showed up for myself. This is when life changed drastically for me. I realized I had this little girl inside of me that was still in the driver’s seat and creating life by the thoughts and beliefs she picked up in her childhood. She still felt not good enough, unlovable, needy, and insignificant. So she constantly attracted men that brought out these feelings in her. They were her mirrors and biggest teachers.
The moment I realized this was the moment I took my power back. I realized just as I created what I didn’t want, I can now create what I DID want! Holy crap! How good does that feel realizing that, right?
So, my journey was about unbecoming everything that wasn’t who I truly was. It was about shedding layers that I put on through the years to protect me. I acknowledged all these false beliefs and little bitches inside that were running my life and healed them. I sat with my little girl and gave her what she needed that she didn’t get as a child. AND THIS WAS EVERYTHING!
With that, I instead started to meet my own needs and see myself as a big deal for the first time in 35 years. I began to tell my little girl she was lovable and so worthy of great love. I told her she can have what she wants and deserves it all! Then, I began to embody this new version of me and show up as her in all that I did. I began to show up as the woman I wanted to be BEFORE I was actually fully there.
THIS is when I began attracting men who reflected my new reality back to me. Men who were fascinated by me. Men who couldn’t wait to take me on the next date. I had never been so filled with love, happiness, excitement, and inner peace and that became exactly my new norm.
It took time but I now realize that if I would've stayed married, I never would have found these hidden gems within myself. I finally became reliant on myself for the first time in my life. I finally learned what it meant to truly first love myself.
Although I was often alone on my journey, I was hardly ever lonely. I no longer need another to fill the voids within myself. I had become the person that I wanted to be to share the next part of my journey with. I was ready for my equal, as a whole person. No more wounded birds or father figures to take care of or rescue me. I was no longer that damsel in distress that needed to be saved. I was an empowered, majestic queen ready for her king.
I didn’t need another to complete me anymore because I finally completed myself.
And that’s when my dream love walked into my life. When I no longer showed up with the energy of “needing” him to to fill a void. It happened instead when I showed up in the energy of “wanting” him to because I was so damn happy with my life and my own self that another was just the whipped cream and cherry on top.
Today, we are committed to each other for over 3 years already and have a beautiful little baby boy together that we called in to us. We’re a happy and loving blended family, as he is the most amazing step-dad to all three of my children and they absolutely adore their “Gar-bear”.
I healed and consciously co-created and stepped into my dream love, life, family, and career with the Universe.
Now, it’s your turn! Are you ready to be who you need to be and unbecome everything that no longer serves you, in order to create the love and life you truly deserve and desire? The one you can rest assured knowing was meant for you just in your very desire that you have for it?